How hard can it be figuring out who you are??
I used to think I knew who I was. Not fully, of course, but certain parts of me I was sure I knew. Like my sexuality for example.
Some people may think that it’s not a very big deal what sexuality you are.
But that’s the problem… I don’t know what I am.
I’m a virgin, so ‘knowing whether I enjoyed sex with a male or female’ doesn’t come into this.
I have no idea what I like, or even who I like right about now.
Like yes! I’m only 17 you say?
Wrong. No matter how old I am or how young I may seem, my sexuality and everybody’s around me, is a big deal.
Labels are a rather shitty thing.
I try to say; ‘Who cares if I don’t know what gender I prefer?’
But the answer always comes back to me. I care.
And this is where the problem comes from.
But going back to the 17 thing, does me being this old mean that I need to know every little thing about me?
Do I need to know something that doesn’t even define who I am?
But yes!! Yes I would just love that little point in the right direction for me, so I know a little bit more about myself!
But no, I’m still that 17 year old virgin that has no idea what gender or person she is into, and is still that lost in finding out every part of herself.